THE WONDERS OF MOTHERHOOD

When I think about how my life has changed since 1st July and the effect that Alice's presence has had on my life - the happiness and love that she has brought, I'm overwhelmed.

I expected to need 'breaks' from her, but I find that I'm not happy when I'm away from her - I worry about her, not knowing what she's doing, I'm jealous of those who are with her - yet at the same time I'm so grateful to them for caring for her and loving her too. I thought that as time went on I'd get to the point where the separating would become easier - I do now appreciate the time apart to do the things that Alice wouldn't like, but I still find myself hurrying back to her. The unpleasant bits - dirty nappies, vomit - are so much easier than I thought, because however unpleasant those things are, I want my baby to be happy, clean and comfortable and I'm the one who has to deal with those things to keep her clean, well, safe and happy. As time goes on the bonds continue to strengthen (even though everyday they seem as strong as they could possible be) and as they strengthen I love her more - incredible, wonderful and better than I could ever have imagined. WOW.